but with the majority of my friends now on tumblr, i don’t feel comfortable sharing my personal feelings on here anymore. i tend to get “called out” for “shit talking”, but in reality it’s just me expressing how i feel on a place i think is safe.

you all know that me and pat have been, not fighting, but acting weird towards each other. it sucks but whatever, these things take time. that being said, i am single, but i definitely don’t feel single. i love patrick and i’m really going to try to work things out between us.

with that being clarified, I AM NOT LOOKING FOR ANYONE. i cannot stress that enough. over the past month, i have been basically harassed by single guys trying to hook up with me. i am getting so sick of it. i have completely lost my faith in guys. at parties, i love having conversation, but by me having a conversation, guys instantly think they have a right to bone me.

i cried in the shower today about it. what has our world come to when a woman can’t leave the house without being verbally/physically harassed? i feel like i have a curse. and i just want to be left alone.

i have been whistled at, honked at, yelled at, spanked, and touched by boys who have no right to come near me.

i really have no idea what writing this will do, but this is what’s been on my mind.

and i don’t care if you think i’m beautiful, i don’t want to hear it if all you want to do is fuck me. i think you’re hideous for wanting to fuck me, hows that?